Time and time again the voice creeps back in and I have to actively shut it up.
It’s not enough to ignore a negative to get it to fade away, you have to actively and intentionally replace it with a positive.
Wrestling with my demons today. They like to try and whittle down my identity and self esteem, those bastards. I feel blah today. I haven’t reached my weight-loss goals. I am so impatient with myself. I really need to say kinder things to myself inside my head.
Geez, really? You’re still not there? You are lazy. You’re never gonna be what you were again.
I can really work myself up into quite a tailspin of depression if I give those voices free reign. Whoever is speaking such poison into my brain, I certainly give them too much mental real estate. The kinder voice, the one that cares about me, is often quiet and hard to find:
You will get there. Take it one day at a time. Don’t give up. You are worth the effort it takes to get back on track. Love yourself.
I’m not very nice to myself. No one is putting this pressure on but me. I will be turning 32 this year, I guess I just want to get in better shape because I am…
