Goodbye Christmas

Now that Christmas is over, I feel like I can breathe again. Sure it is nice getting presents and going to a few parties, but those last couple of days before it actually hits, gets to be too much for me.

I am glad to see life return to normal. No more advertisements, no more Christmas music, or sales for this or that. It really does get to be overwhelming, when you hear the same stuff for like two months straight.

I had the luxury of a couple hours to myself yesterday. I drove home and took a hot shower and then crawled in bed in some fresh and clean PJs. It felt so good to just be still and silent in the darkness of my room. I love moments of solitude. They refresh me and strengthen me to be a better mom, coworker, or friend.

I am curious to see what 2018 brings. So far, the end of the year has been great. I am enjoying my new home. My daughter started cheer-leading. I’ve booked more writing jobs. I lost a friend this year and that was hard, but I also gained a new one. Seasons change, circumstances change, but the people that really love you will be there through the changes.

Finally, after leaving the bird seed out for an entire month, I have a steady flock of birds coming in my yard. Among them: a cardinal, chickadee, woodpecker, and yellow finches. I love wildlife. I like to watch it change too. We got our first snow of the winter a few days before Christmas. I woke my daughter up at 4 am to peak outside and see a sparkling blanket of snow covering our yard and street. Her jaw dropped. Her eyes wide with amazement. These moments are precious to me.

I learned how to not worry in 2017. A lesson I will take with me the rest of my life. It feels good to not be anxious anymore. I am not sure what finally stopped my incesent worrying. But I just decided one day I was done, done letting circumstances rob me of my peace of mind. Now, when something comes up that worrys me. I just feel it for a moment and let it go. Whatever is meant to be will be, worrying solves nothing for me.

I look forward to the new year and all the new things I’ll learn. The new people I will meet and new lessons I’ll learn.