A Letter To My Diamond in The Rough

Hello darling. I’ve had things I’ve wanted to say to you for awhile now. Many things. Pretty things. Some of them aren’t easy to say, but since you’ve fallen in love with me, you already know and accept them. That feels amazing by the way-to be fully known and accepted flaws and all. So thank you for that.

Firstly, I want to tell you I’m sorry. I am sorry specifically for the times that I have settled. The times I did not wait for you, and out of loneliness and impatience, chose to date someone I knew I wasn’t in love with. You see there were many times I lost hope. I didn’t think you’d ever come. I wasn’t even sure you exsisted at all. I’ve been on so many boring and disappointing dates. Yikes. If you only knew. Finding you was like hoping to find a diamond buried in the sea and not having any scuba gear. An allusive dream. Impossible. It seemed and some said as much. Hope feels often like a set up for disappointment. It’s easier to deny you hope for love at all. But that is not my way. I couldn’t be like that if I tried. I am a hopeless romantic.

When guy number 1, 2, and whatever left me. I didn’t cry. I didn’t care. Because I knew he wasn’t you. Sure the rejection stung a little. You’ve been there. But it didn’t really hurt, because only things you feel deep in your heart hurt when you lose them. I didn’t love them. I love you. I know you would never leave me. Never hurt me intentionally. You are flawed. But it makes you beautiful. Your awareness and acceptance of it makes you so strong to me. I love your humbleness. You don’t pretend to be perfect. You don’t take yourself too seriously. You are positive about your humanness and it’s one of the many things I love about you. Your smile makes my knees weak. When I see your name pop up on my phone, I smile. I can’t help it. You are the first thing on my mind when I wake up and the last thing before I drift off to sleep. You are bright rays of sunshine seeping into my day and warming my heart amidst the storm.

I knew eventually you’d find me. It wasn’t quick or easy Because I’m that diamond too. Buried in a different ocean under different circumstances. There was a different set of challenges to get to me and it was even harder to keep me. The world will do anything to destroy real love. It’s so rare and there’s hatred and jealousy everywhere you turn. It’s the only thing were all longing for and what makes life worth living. You were so patient when we first started dating. You knew I wouldn’t trust you easily. You broke down my walls slowly. Until I realized I was standing naked before you. I wanted to feel shame. But you loved me instead. I wanted to hide, but you showed me it was safe. I tried not to make you pay for the sins of others, but sometimes I failed. It wasn’t your fault. You felt frustrated but you don’t give up easily. You’re strong. When you find something you care about, you fight for it. I admire your tenacity. It’s a strength I’ve never known.

You are my last first kiss. When you kiss me, I am home. When you wrap your arms around me, I am completely safe. When I look into your eyes, I am so lost in the best possible way. I feel small. Your kindness overwhelms me. The world can keep on being hateful. Being cruel. Being ridiculous. I can face anything now because at the end of the day, I come home to you. You are my escape and also my thrill. We’ve shared so much with each other. Ups and downs.

I know I’m going to find you. Or you’re going to find me. It’s just a matter of time. I have hope and I choose to believe it’s true. It is so hard waiting for you love. I know I have to stop settling. Every man that’s not you, just keeps me from putting myself in a path where you could be able to find me.

Please stop settling if you are. If we both keeping settling for what’s second best, we may never find each other. Time is precious. It is also so limited. You start dying the same day you start living.

I would wait 10 years for the kind of love you bring because it’s the kind that lasts till death. It’s not rooted in superficial things. It’s not self-seeking. Real love. You are worth every heartache I’ve ever felt. You’re worth all the pain of my past. I don’t think I would appreciate you the way I do had I not known the pain. Every time I say no to a guy I don’t think will treat me well, I am saying yes to you. And this is my gift to you from outside of time. Our time. I am ready to stop settling. I can’t keep doing things the way I have been. I know I deserve you. I’ve been making it hard for you to find me, but not on purpose. Other lovers have distracted me. I’ve been so lonely that it’s easy to focus on a few things you like about a person, and just try to make it work. A lot of people do that. I’m not judging. It’s hard. Waiting for the real deal can take years. It’s not for the faint of heart. But I don’t want someone I can live with, I want someone I don’t want to live without. Life is sweeter because I share it with you. We support each other through thick and thin.

You know when I’m testing you. You see right through it and remind me in the most loving of ways, that it’s unnecessary Whit…

You are beautiful inside and out. I am the luckiest woman alive. Thank you for loving me.

Thank you for not judging me. Thank you for accepting my flaws and being patient with me. You inspire me daily. You make me want to become the best version of myself. You see past my mistakes and remind me of what’s beautiful inside of me. You think I’m pretty and you tell me often. But it’s more than that. You know my heart and you love that more than anything. I feel the exact same way about you. You’re amazing. Please find me soon. I’ll continue to grow and enjoy life with all its twists and turns until you do.

I love you now and I always will,

Whit

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